Thursday, June 30, 2016

RESULTS OF ULTRASOUNDS

I had the pelvic and vaginal ultrasounds done this morning.  The tech said I should have results by middle of next week.  Two hours after I got home my GYN's office calls me and says they have the results.  Already?  Eeek.  That made me nervous.  Apparently it's nothing that requires emergency 'service'.  There were no polyps or fibroids detected.  However, the uterine lining for a woman of my age ( 63 ) should be 5mm or less and mine is 10mm, doubled. That doesn't sound good.  I go back to the GYN this coming Wednesday and and I have to have ANOTHER exam ( my 3rd in less than a week) and a discussion about a D & C (dilation and curettage) which will require an outpatient visit to the hospital.  I will be anesthetized and dilated to open up my cervix and the endometrium lining will be scraped for that biopsy they weren't able to complete yesterday.
I was hoping to be able to schedule the D & C before we leave for our 2 week family beach vacation, but was told the 'turnaround' was too soon.  Hopefully when we get home then. Two weeks after that my husband and I are planning a 2 week trip to California which we've both really been looking forward to.  I pray we won't have to cancel.  But it is what it is and my health has to come first.
I'm thinking that regardless of whether there are cancerous cells or not, there is a hysterectomy in my near future.  No, my doctor never told me that, but like I said, I read too much.  :/

Wednesday, June 29, 2016

A POST-MENOPAUSAL BITE IN THE BUTT

 It's been a VERY long time since I've had anything to say/write regarding my post-menopausal journey.  Things were going pretty smoothly.  My 'Menopausal Monster aka Mrs. Hyde' has been dormant.  I've not had a period for 11 YEARS and my hot flashes are gone, although I still do not like to be overly warm. 
Every summer the family goes on a two week beach vacation to the Wildwoods in New Jersey.  Last week my three daughters and 16 year old grand daughter were discussing their cycles, I'm going to start our first week, I'll be done before we get there, I start our second week, me too.....and I pipe in with "I'm soooooo glad I don't have to worry about those any longer"  BOO Mom, BOO Gramma.  I awoke Sunday morning with an urgency to use the bathroom.  To my utter surprise there was blood in my underwear.  To my utter HORROR there was bright red blood in the toilet.  A lot of it.  My very first thought was there was blood in my urine.  Is it a kidney stone?  A urinary tract infection? I wasn't in any pain.  No burning sensations.  I cleaned myself up and put on clean underwear.  I got on the computer and looked up symptoms for kidney stones and most everything I read said if you did see blood, it was light pink, and sometimes the blood can only be detected through a laboratory test of the urine.  Everyone who has had kidney stones say they are in extreme pain.  I ruled that out.  I just didn't feel like I had a urinary infection.  When I had to use the toilet again, there was more blood in my underwear and in the toilet along with a few small clots.  Now I'm getting worried.  My husband was at the flea market and I called him to ask if he'd stop at the store and pick me up some panty liners.  I determined I was 'having a period' and how in the H*LL could THAT be after 11 years being post-menopausal?  I'm one of those people who just have to go online and start searching for possible answers.  I don't try to diagnose myself, I'm not a doctor or nurse. However I  don't want to stay in the dark and want to try to understand what 'could' be going on.  I search for post-menopausal bleeding and of course they all say it is NOT normal and to see your doctor as soon as possible.  I planned to.  The worst possible scenario of course is cancer.  A thin uterine lining that is shedding cells might mean you need some Estrogen.  Polyps and fibroids can cause bleeding.  Those are most often benign and can be removed.
Since I wasn't hemorrhaging I opted not to go to the ER.  I sat down and sent an email to my Dr.'s office explaining what was going on, in the hopes she would see it first thing in the morning and call me.  She did.  She worked me into her schedule and did an internal exam and a pelvic exam.  She concurred there was a lot of blood in my uterus.  She wanted me to see a GYN and have some ultra sounds done.  She was trying to get me seen the same day but that just wasn't working out.  I had to wait 2 more days ( today ) for my GYN appt.
 In the meantime I continued to do some research.  Something caught my eye CAN YOU GO THROUGH MENOPAUSE TWICE?  Oh Dear Lord, please tell me this isn't so.  I read several different articles/forum questions and replies and I rightfully or wrongfully came to the conclusion that the ladies who were worried may have been going through peri-menopause the first time around ( they had been in their 40's at the time and were now in their early 50's and experiencing hot flashes, mood swings but not once did I read where their periods had stopped for at least one year.  I was in my late 40's when I went through peri-menopause.  When I was about 49 or 50 I had stopped having them for 6 months and was elated, only 6 more months to go.  Then I had one, and another and another.  At one point I had gone 11 months without one....and then BINGO, got one.  I was 52 before I finally completed my FIRST FULL YEAR and to my pure happiness another 10 years went by.
 Until now.
When I went to bed last night, there was no blood on my panty liner or in the toilet.  None throughout the night and none this morning.  Hubby said  "do you want to cancel your appt."?  NO I replied, even though I'm not bleeding right now, I did for 3 days and that simply isn't normal at 63 years of age!
So this morning I had another internal exam and another pelvic exam.  The vaginal speculum was inserted and after a few seconds my body LITERALLY SPIT IT OUT onto the floor.  I am not kidding.  The Dr. was floored, said she had never seen that happen.  It was inserted correctly and I was relaxed ( as relaxed as you can be when a total stranger is peeking inside your most private parts).  I promised her 'I' did not spit it out  ( but I can't speak for Mrs. Hyde).  Her assistant got another speculum and this time it stayed put.  Now the Dr. was explaining that she was going to insert a straw like tube into my uterus and lightly scrape the lining.  The tube would suck up the loose endometrial lining and that would be sent to the lab for biopsy.  She explained it would be uncomfortable, that I'd feel some cramping.  It was, I did.  But what I was feeling was mostly probing because the tube would NOT go in.  She asked her assistant for a thinner tube, one that has a little point on the end to make it easier to poke and enter.  She was once again flabberghasted, as it just kept bending backward, it would not penetrate.  Now I'm thinking Mrs. Hyde was surely brought out of her dormant state and she was having none of these alien things poking into our body cavities.  To the Dr.'s dismay she had to forego the endometrial biopsy 'for now'.  She said a number of times she's never had this happen to her.  Naturally I couldn't explain about Mrs. Hyde, she would have made me an appt. with a Psychiatrist. I swear I heard giggling somewhere in my nether region.  I'm quite upset with Mrs. Hyde, as I really want answers to why I'm bleeding.  I don't need her interference.
So now tomorrow morning I'm scheduled for two ultra sounds, one is a pelvic and the other a vaginal.  These will be measuring my uterine lining and searching for polyps and/or fibroids.
Please say a prayer that Mrs. Hyde behaves herself and sleeps through it all.  I want this problem FIXED ASAP.
It may take up to 10 days for results. :/






Thursday, January 23, 2014

I'm Still Around

      I don't post often on here anymore since I'm now POST menopausal and no longer suffer through hot flashes  although I still HATE to be HOT or overly warm.  I don't wear sweatshirts or sweaters in the winter because...they make me too hot.  I stick to short sleeve tops and occasionally will wear a sleeveless top around the house.  Heat is never turned up above 68 degrees, even when it's in the single digits here. 
     I turned 61 in December.  I  was about 47 when diagnosed with peri-menopause, 52 when my periods finally stopped (HALLELUJAH!)  Hard to believe I started this blog/diary nearly 6 years ago.  Not much has changed.  Mrs. Hyde has permanently integrated herself.  She is me, I am her.  We're both still 'overweight' and since diagnosed with diabetes in November 2013 we are more conscious of what we are eating and watching those carbs.  Lost 11 lbs since November and we're at a plateau already.  I have 80 more to go. Once the weather warms up a bit, I think I'll take us for a walk and start getting some exercise in.  In the early Fall when walking I would experience an ice cold feeling in my chest.  Reported it to my cardiologist who was thinking 'angina' and had me take a stress test.  Apparently I passed it ( although while taking it, I thought I would literally pass out and wondered if I would die).  Since I've not been out walking in this frigid winter weather, I really don't know if the pain will start up again.  Of course it doesn't happen when I'm walking around the house or in a store, because I'm not exerting myself.  We'll see what happens when I get back out there.  Hopefully soon.
     I'm finally used to my CPAP machine.  I wear the mask all night long now.  For quite a while I could only manage 4 hours a night.  I'm still not getting a full nights rest however, as the mask is a nuisance when air leaks.  I tried the nasal pillow, cannot adjust to it.  I found that I cannot sleep at all without the mask.
     I had to have my implanted pacemaker/defibrillator replaced in Sept. of 2013 as the other one's lead pulled out of my heart.   For months, I was experiencing shortness of breath just walking around the house.  I thought it was due to my being overweight ( which is part of it I'm sure), but the pacemaker had quit pacing and it wasn't until I'd gone in for my yearly checkup to have the pacemaker tested that the Dr. found out the lead had extracted itself.
It was 6 years old by then and within the next year would have to replaced anyway due to needing a new battery, so we opted to have the surgery asap.  I do feel much better now with one that is actually working again.
     I have 5 grandkids now.  The oldest will be 14 in Feb. and the youngest is 4 mo. old.   They are such a blessing.  There is NOTHING like being a grandparent.
     I am still selling my primitive / folkart / country crafts online.  If anyone is interested, you can view my work at KKL Primitives.

Thank you for stopping by!
     ★Denise★

Monday, November 26, 2012

IT WORKS, or Does It Day 10

      I received my Greens and Fat Fighter on Friday Nov. 16th.  I did the 'BOOST' 2 spoonfuls
( spoon included)  5 x day faithfully.  If I ate something fatty I took 2 fat fighter tablets within an hour of eating.
     On Tues. the 20th I had to go for routine blood work and had a bone density test done.  While there I was measured and weighed.  I used to be 5' 5 1/2" tall.  I've lost an entire inch.  The nurse said I weighed 220.  I'm a little bummed until it dawns on me....I LOST 2 LBS!  :)  
I continued the program even on Thanksgiving.  I ate everything I wanted, but only took small portions.  My plate was still full.  I also had a small slice of pecan pie and 2 alcoholic beverages.
     I was getting low on the Greens so ordered another jar.  Hoping it comes today.  I was only able to have 2 servings yesterday as the jar is now empty.  I was told there would be enough for 10 days but it was more like 8 days.  I got on the scale this morning and I lost another 3 lbs.
I realize it's probably water loss, but I'm happy with that.  5 lbs is 5 lbs.
     Whether 'it's in my head' or not, I felt full while taking the Greens.  I wasn't tempted to snack.  I will continue the Greens with the 2nd jar and see how it goes.
     The Greens came in the mail today, so I'm back to it!




★Denise★

Friday, November 16, 2012

IT WORKS or does it? Day 1

 Ok, I'm trying a little experiment.  There is a product out there called IT WORKS.  A whole line of homeopathic and herbal products that claim they can help you lose weight, tone up, lose inches, detoxify, and I know a sales rep 'personally' that is a crafter, like myself and uses the products herself and claims they work for her.
I KNOW there is no such thing as a 'miracle pill' but that did not stop me from purchasing one of the It Works chin wraps.  I have a turkey waddle.  Not huge, but it's there.  I don't like it.  
 Chin stretching exercises that my Mom told me to try years ago only gave me stretch marks.
So I bought a chin wrap.  Just one.  $35.  With directions to cut it up to make a total of 6 wraps.
 I followed the directions to the T.  After 72 hours ( claims to continue working during that time) I did another one.  Then another one.  I did NOT notice any improvement.  NADA, NON, NOTHING, ZERO, ZIP.  I let my friend know I didn't get any results and she tried to be very helpful.  Maybe I needed to detox first, with green tea.  
After talking to someone in the business, it was decided that it could be that all the meds I am on is thwarting any positive results.  End of story............or end of Part 1?

Now we are at several weeks later.  I have noticed that the past few weeks I feel bloated all the time, my lower back really hurts.  I feel enormous.  My 3 year old grand daughter wanted to know why my belly was so fat.  I am not a BIG eater, but I know I do eat the wrong foods.  I've measured, I've cut out foods, but I cannot stick to a DIET.  I've tried over and over.  I don't get the exercise I need because of lower back pain or pinched nerves in my legs, it's always something.

I had a Dr. appt. Tuesday and we went all over this.  She surprised the hell out of me when she suggested Gastric By Pass surgery as an option.  I was really dumbfounded, because I thought that was a 'drastic' option for people who weighed over 300 lbs.  Well, I hate to admit this but I weighed in at 222.  They MOST I've ever weighed in my nearly 60 years and I am not a happy camper. I did some research on gastric by pass and this is NOT something I am ready to consider.  I would actually have to go through screenings and meetings to see if I even qualify but at this point it's all moot.

So..... I decided to give IT WORKS a shot.  I purchased a bottle of Advanced Formula Fat Fighter with carb inhibitors and a jar of GREENS.  They are not cheap, but 'if' they help me, it's well worth it.  Even if it's only PSYCHOLOGICAL.  Because nothing else has worked.  Tried Weight Watchers, couldn't stick to it.  Tried Curves, couldn't keep up with it because of pinched nerves.  So what do I have to lose except pounds or the money I spent on them.  It's only paper.
I'm supposed to take 2 tablets of the Fat fighter within one hour of a large meal ( especially if it's a fatty meal).  It is supposed to :
  • Block some of the fat & carbs from meals
  • Helps balance blood glucose level and reduce cravings
The Greens is an alkalizing drink powder with the nutritional value of 8+ servings of fruits and vegetables in each serving that you mix with water.   2 little cupfuls ( cup comes with it) and my friend suggests if you put it in water to also add a packet of Special K20 protein water mix 
( made by Kelloggs).  She also adds it to coffee, tea, juice.  Normally you would drink this once a day but I'm trying the BOOSTER and doing it 5x day for 10 days.  It actually doesn't taste bad at all mixed with the K2O.  I was surprised and glad.

I was expecting this package yesterday so wanting to eat better too, I had a bowl of raisin bran with milk for breakfast. For mid morning snack I had a can of V8, for lunch I had a banana.  For dinner I had one slice of pizza.  For a snack I had a small cup of fruit.  We have candy laying around from Halloween and I wasn't even tempted to take a bite!  Not one!  I had my daughter pick me up some green tea and lemon and had 2 cups of that.   I will have to remember not to drink it in the evening though as I had to pee several times during the night.
 This is why I'm saying it COULD by psychological - on my part anyway.  I know from past experience that I cannot stick to a 'diet' and to have to change my whole way of eating FOREVER is just too damned drastic.  I still want to be able to eat a slice of pizza now and then, a slice of cake, my beloved Skippy peanut butter on a half toasted bagel.  CHEESE!  I love cheese.  Now I'm making myself hungry.   

Today for breakfast I had a half toasted bagel with strawberry jam.  Mid morning I had some green tea and lemon.  For lunch a small piece of pizza.  In between I've been drinking water and have had 3 of the greens drinks so far.  Will spread the other 2 out for before dinner and after.  
I can honestly say I am not HUNGRY.   Psychological?  Maybe.  I plan to have a tuna salad for my dinner with some onion, a hard boiled egg and a T. of mayo - and I will take a Fat fighter tablet for the mayo.  

I've been reading some posts about  IT WORKS on a scam board that are both positive and negative.  I prefer to come to my own conclusion.
http://www.scam.com/showthread.php?t=117913
I will keep you informed how things are going  for me.  It's green tea time.  Til later.


MRS. HYDE RETURNS

 It has been several months since I posted.

 It has been AGES since Mrs. Hyde visited but she made a surprise ( to me) visit and stayed almost 2 weeks. 

In this time I was very upset with Tom.  It seemed like he was always picking on me for something really stupid.  Each time I would respond with a sarcastic remark.  He would roll his eyes and mutter under his breath "WHAT is your PROBLEM?!" and I would reply quite loudly...."YOU, YOU'RE THE PROBLEM".  Then that would be the end of that until the next complaint / shouting match. 
I had a follow up Dr.'s appt. for my blood pressure late Tues. morning.  Before we left, Tom stood at the stove eating a piece of leftover Halloween chocolate.  He said "Who keeps leaving candy wrappers on the counter?"  Well DUH!  We're the only two that live here, and if it wasn't him, I suppose it had to be me, right?  I told him it was me.  He counters with " why didn't you put them in the garbage?"  " Maybe because I got sidetracked, who knows?"  Then he starts to say something sarcastic and I blew up.  "IF TWO CANDY WRAPPERS SITTING ON THE COUNTER BOTHERS YOU SO FREAKING MUCH, THROW THEM AWAY YOURSELF!".  He replies "YOU BETTER TALK TO YOUR DR, THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG WITH YOU!!".

I always take my medication list with me when I go to the Dr.'s, and I needed some refills.  Dr. M. says, why isn't your Venlafaxine on here?  What's that?  Your Effexor XR...and then it hit me.....that's for my ...........................WAIT FOR IT.........................WAIT FOR IT...............



MOOD SWINGS!!!!!   I hadn't taken my medication for nearly 2 weeks!!!  I have no clue what happened to the bottle.  Luckily for me ( and Tom) he went down to the drugstore as soon as we got home and picked it up for me.   You aren't supposed to go off this medication cold turkey.  I wasn't even trying to get off it.  But I do know when I miss 2 days in a row I get horrible headaches.  And I DID get headaches, but did not realize I was out of those pills.  That's pretty easy to do I guess, it's not like I take one or two - I take 9 pills ( includes aspirin) a day.  I even distribute them in those weekly medicine containers.  Can't understand how I missed them, but I suspect Mrs. Hyde had something to do with it.

It's been quiet on the home front for the last two days.  Things are back to normal.  Tom asked me both mornings if I took my mean pill.

★Denise★

Wednesday, April 04, 2012

Menopausal Monster In The Top 11 Menopause Blogs

Healthline editors recently published their final list of the top 11 menopause blogs on the web and http://menopausalmonster.blogspot.com/ made the list. You can find the complete list at http://www.healthline.com/health-slideshow/best-menopause-blogs#1 (in no particular order).

http://www.healthline.com/health-slideshow/best-menopause-blogs#8

Thank you Healthline editors!


★Denise★

Monday, February 27, 2012

SURVEY FOR PERI-AND MENOPAUSAL WOMEN

Professor Daniel Fessler, professor of anthropology at UCLA, is interested in people’s attitudes, particularly those of peri-and postmenopausal women. If you have about 20 minutes or so to spare, please take some time and complete this survey. The survey is completely anonymous.
If you would like to help by participating, please click on the link below or copy and paste it into your web browser:


Thanks very much!
Daniel M.T. Fessler
Associate Professor of Anthropology
Dept. of Anthropology, UCLA

★Denise★